When Will it Stop Hurting [Book Tour with Excerpt]

Welcome to one of the May 13th stops on the blog tour for When Will it Stop Hurting by Glenn Cameron, organized by Goddess Fish Promotions. Be sure to follow the rest of the tour for spotlights, reviews, and a giveaway! More on that at the end of this post.

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About the Book

When Will it Stop Hurting
One Man’s Journey Through Grief
by Glenn Cameron

Published 28 July 2019
Tellwell Talent

Genre: Non-Fiction, Memoir
Page Count: 77
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Crystle was the love of his life. For thirty-six years they had done everything together. As retirement approached all he could think of was spending even more time with his beautiful wife, growing old together. Just three years earlier they had sold their home in the Toronto area and moved to Niagara in preparation for retirement. Then on her 58th birthday, Crystle was diagnosed with stage four brain cancer. A terminal diagnosis that Glenn never allowed himself to accept. But just eight months later she had succumbed to her illness and Glenn was thrust into a time filled with uncontrolled grief that seemed to almost suffocate him. This is his real life story. He shares the raw emotions and the dark places he visited in his mind. His story will make you laugh and cry. It will makes you cherish your loved ones. You will be uplifted as you follow his path in overcoming grief. His inspirational story will provide comfort and hope to others struggling with grief.

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Excerpt

I knew I had asked our children, now adults and both living away from our home, to leave me alone. I was grateful they heeded my request but a small part of me hoped they might break my rules. Regardless, I needed to face being alone, alone. Once downstairs I was running on an autopilot routine. Coffee was first. I wasn’t hungry so I didn’t eat. As I stood looking into the nothingness, my coffee grew cold. Then I would plunk down on “the bus.” The bus is a red leather loveseat in our kitchen. Crystle and I gave it that name because we spent hours on that couch, both looking straight ahead as if we were sitting on a bus together.

Once I sat down, I would finally take a drink of coffee. I remember thinking to myself that death was now welcome. I no longer feared death. I could not find any reason to live. Yes, selfish, I realize, but that was where I was at in those early days of grief. I wrote repeatedly in my journal for those first few days that I could see no reason to carry on with life. Suicide crossed my mind. I am not ashamed of those thoughts, but I am glad I dismissed that notion rather quickly. Somewhere deep inside, even though I had not given it much thought, I knew I needed to be here for our family. That was perhaps the first ray of sunlight into my dark forest. I had a purpose for living tomorrow, and the next day. Our children needed me to be here.

I was filled with negative emotions. I spoke briefly of these emotions in the introduction and I will share more about those emotions more deeply in their own chapter, but for now, suffice to say I was full of anger, jealousy, and guilt. I was unhappy and I didn’t see why anyone else had the right to be happy. I didn’t want anyone to be happy.

Eventually I would fall asleep on the bus. Sleep was my best friend in these early days.

About the Author

I grew up in Canada’s east coast and moved to Toronto in my late teens. I was ready to sow my wild oats in the big city. But I met Crystle on a blind date and everything changed. I knew she was the love of my life. I have a business degree from the University of New Brunswick and I have worked in the information technology sector much of my working career. That hardly is credentials for an author, but life makes us all experts, even in areas we may prefer not to hold that title. When Crystle passed my life was forever changed. My grief was so overwhelming I felt I needed to share my story and if even one person is inspired to defeat grief then my writing career will be a success.

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Giveaway Alert!

Glenn Cameron will be awarding a $10 Amazon or Barnes & Noble gift card to a randomly drawn winner via rafflecopter during the tour.

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